I had to come to some very hard conclusions about things today... makes me sad but it takes a lot of stress away... kinda... changes the stress mostly. Not doing well, been better. oh well.

on the upside... got some collage information... might be able to visit in the summer. woo hoo... I dunno I was so excited about it earlier... but now it doesnt seem to matter

I am convinced the Steelers paid the zebras. I have NRVER seen referees so one sided before! Never! but I like the game it was good... didnt land on any of my numbers ( my numbers SUCKED tho ) so I didnt win anything but it was fun all the same. oh and my absolute favorite commercial was the streaking sheep budwieser one after 1st quarter. That one was hilarious...


favorite quote of today


" Do you want to know the best part of the superbowl" -Don
" the commercials" - Chris
" no when its over, because that means baseball season is just around the corner" -Don

oh good ol' Don... guess what that means... GO GIANTS!!! I do have a favorite baseball team... unlike my football team which is see who makes it into the superbowl and root for the underdogs, or the ones with the better attitude.

First off the band concert went better than I expected. and the Jazz band rocked!


Now I'm bored and semi-sick. My grandpa didnt make the concert like I had hoped... made me a bit sad. but he said he was sorry. and I'm just well bored.

::sigh:: finals are over! aaahhh I feel good, got into some good discussions today it was all around fun. ummm english was easy and we got another seating chart in history... I SIT NEXT TO PREPPIES NOW ::whimpers:: but Art was fun. and now I'm at roxannes aunt's before the concert and we are having fun. also I drew another picture. yay. so yeah, I'll update later too. for news on the concert and my solos... all 2 notes!


-meghan


PS NERD HAPPY!!! I got to use pastels today!

So today is friday the 13th, my favorite day ever! Ok my birthday and Christmas beat it, but after that... I love friday the 13th. I had a long day at school today but I think I have the coolest idea yet for my picture final... so yeah school was fun, me and David are still friends so that's cool. Also I went and worked out so I feel energized and happy. I don't believe that endorphens MAKE you happy I believe they just make you remember happy things. My spots are pissing me off, but I have had a really day.

I HATE SPOTS!!! Sorry let me explaine, spots appearing on my legs is a very bad thing, for it means my blood disorder has come back and my capilaries are "leaking". This is bad because along with leaking capilaries I get a WHOLE slew of side affects, including muscle cramps... cramps that resemble period cramps but like 10 times worse... with no midol to treat, random keel over stomach aches, joint pains, dizzy/passing out spells. and thoes are only some of the side affects. that I get to deal with on a daily basis. just in freaking time for finals... Oh and not to mention, If any of this blood doesnt stay on the surface and decides to travel inwards toward my organs... I could die. so yeah.. other than that i'm in a really good mood.

So today was well not bad but not the greatest. I learned that Jason inspires very bad poetry, but thats ok, I love him anyways. Also... BAAAADDD DREAMS that are rather GOOOOOODDD are side affects from loving him... grr I want to actually be able to sleep sometime, you know, without waking up ready to screw someone. ::glare:: AND I WANTED TO BE HANDCUFFED... NO FAIR! ::clears throat:: ahem anyways yeah...

other news... I love him...ok I know that isnt new... lesse. I drew another picture, with the coolest lion king quote on it... no not hakuna mattata, its when simba is sad after talking about stars with timon and pumba. "You said you'd always be there for me, But you're not!"

So parents are gone today... that means phone for me, so I spent about 2 hrs on the phone talking to the man I love about anything we could think of really... I could listen to him talk about nothing and still feel like I am more wanted than the world itself. I don't know if I'm fooling myself by loving him this strongly but I do. I've been told by too many adults that Love at 16 really means nothing because most of it is influenced by hormones, But I think I have to disagree with them... I honestly think a lot of our lusting comes from hormones but the love we feel is as true as any adults'. I'd like opinions please. Aside from talking on the phone I took a bubblebath and now I'm soooo soft and pretty much spent the day thinking... but it looked like I was being lazy. Oh well.


Too much thinking can hurt... but it is emotionally, not like the strain on your brain, like in movies.

I see many a people doing this and it looked like fun... especially to se how open I got in my LiveJournal over the year... well here goes nothing.

January- Last week started out ok until we decided to leave the bay area, because we had a like 3 hr car drive only to get stuck in the snow until mon. Grr.

Feburary- (*thinks* hmmm doesnt seem I posted much in this month)

March- WHAT is up with girls and their grudges really and all the name calling...

April-I seem to not have updated in a while... man I have been distracted.

May- Heyo... yesterday i decided to swim back from the banks of Denial and now i'm almost on the shore of the notorious reality land...

June-ok so I didnt update about my band trip... so sue me.

July- AAAHHHHH HOW COULD SHE DO THAT!!!!!

August- (Woa.. no entry)

September- I know I havent updated in a while so here.

October- (ok this isnt the FIRST like... its only part... I seemed to have a problem with periods, this is my favorite part of that sentance) BUT GOD IT'S SO HARD TO STOP LOVING SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY LOVED YOU BACK. I MEAN REALLY REALLY LOVED YOU. ::sigh::
November- was totally rooting for a Criellie but NO they think a Jimmy/Ellie would be better.

December- My goodness today was wierd...


So there we have it... my crazy live journal... yup yup, crazy.